Where soul meets body.

This is life. I've got nine days to wait untill I turn 21. I really don't even understand it. So much shit is going on.. I'm so stoked. My birthday next Thursday, Disneyland on the 10th-15th. I've been working super hard so it's nice to know that i'm going to be treating myself here in the next couple of weeks. I've also been saving up cash for the trip as well. If all goes as planned I should have around 600.00 for disneyland which is hopefully more than enough to get souviners/food/whatever. I really just want to go and not worry about ANYTHING. I'm not even going to bring my cellphone. Ahh it will be so nice.

I'm so greatful to have Taryn in my life. She means so much to me and everyday I spend with her reminds me more and more why I chose her in the first place. So loving, always forgiving, but keeps me in check at the same time. Her family is a godsend. Her whole lifestyle is something I want to be a part of. I know this may seem shocking to read/hear but I honestly feel like I want her to be my wife and have my kids. She means THAT much to me. I spend all week at work asking myself if i'm treating her right. Does she deserve better than I can do? Why didn't I hold her for just a little longer the night before? ugh.

When I get back from Disneyland i'm going to hit the productivity button with authority. Here's a list of what i'd like to get taken care of:

- Study and get G.E.D.
-Start saving money in a car/insurance fund
- Start getting on track with my credit/pay off debts
- Start sourcing parts for my suspension overhaul
- Make new friends/reconnect with old ones
- Make a habit of working out more/get rid of bad habits
- See family more/mainly mom and mama.
- Take more pictures/save for a D40


It's crazy how we can get so caught up in our routine before we realize how out of the loop we actually are. These last two weeks i've been noticing things. The crispness of the 90 degree air. The vibrant colors on select pairs of Vans. The smiles and laughter I so often produce out of myself and others. I ran into alot of my old high school friends and it was so nice to know everyone is just the same as before. Just a little older, with a little more baggage. They've all grown up. I've come to the realization that I must do the same. Gone are the days of vandalizing and shit like that knowing the worst thing that could happen is getting taken home by the police to mommy. On the 30th i'll be a full grown adult. shit. I gotta grow up.

Paolo