So i'm listening to all our old songs. I can't believe we went on for as long as we did. I mean, I knew it was pretty serious but I honestly didn't know what to expect. Looking back at it all now, it was so nice getting to know you on that personal level. I still feel like I know you best, even though I know thats nowhere near the truth.
There was something so special about our innocence. We started out as young friends. I would ride my bike to you dad's apartment and lie about it. Just so you wouldn't think I would go through that trouble to see you. I knew it wasn't that big of a deal but since I first met you i've always wanted things to be perfect. Although that's what I wanted I made alot of mistakes, and you forgave me for alot of them. You can only be so forgiving though, before you must stand up for yourself. I understand now.
I just wish you would understand me. Please, I hope you don't dissapear from my life all together like it's been for the last 6 months. Our journey together through everything must've meant something, and it's a shame that we don't even talk anymore. Whew, it feels good to get that out. Especially knowing that nobody I know is going to read this (I hope.).
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I'd have to say that i agree, on the whole it being a shame that we don't talk anymore thing. I know that since we broke up I've always wanted us to be able to be the kind of ex's that can have a normal friendship and have everything be cool. Maybe I didn't show it at first, but it really is what I have always wanted. Sometimes, its like.. I think about it, and then I realize that maybe it wouldn't be as easy as it sounds. We both have our own lives now with new relationships.. and I think we both know how hard that can make it. Well, regardless, I do hope that we can at least keep in touch somehow just to let each other know how we are doing.
I know that I've never given you much insight on what I ever felt about our relationship, and I feel kind of bad considering you wrote out this thing telling me how you felt. I know now that you did want everything to be perfect. I guess i should have seen it the day that you asked me out. When I sat on my dad's couch and told you how I had been hurt and, it was like, all you wanted to do was make that go away and change things for me. It's something that I've always appreciated and I want you to know that.It's good to know that you can finally see why I had to end things with you and I. It wasn't really what I wanted at the time, but I knew that I had to do it for myself.
All I can tell you, is that I wish you the best in your future. You are such a great person and I hope you realize that, and if you ever need anything don't hesitate to call. I really mean it.
see you around.
Danielle
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